The End
Am I gonna die? Sure I am. Hopefully not today but I know someday. Do I think about it? Yea I have thought about it for a long time. Its one of the things that I do. It helps me enjoy what I have ...when I have it because if there is one thing that I do know for sure is that everything changes, time moves on, etc. I'm not obsessed with these thoughts ( ok define obsessed...I have these thoughts occasionally).
I happen to think its healthy, at least for me, to think about the end. It makes the time before the end all the more sweeter. I didn't mean to write today about the end but as the title of the blog says these are my "ramblings" and I do tend to ramble.
Ok what was I really gonna talk about today...oh yeah I remember ( I really don't remember I am looking at notes that I wrote down cause I knew I would lose my train of thought). I wanted to mention that I have been trying amongst other things to learn to play an instrument. I stink at it so I'm trying to learn two at once. I know that makes no sense but it is actually starting to work. When I get sick or frustrated with one I turn to the other and since they are both very different it works. I have had both of these instruments for sometime. One , the guitar I have had over 20 years, a present on my 40th birthday. The other a bagpipe chanter was another more recent present.
I have found that learning both doesn't have to mean that I'm good a playing either or that I will ever play any notes that together sound like music. I have given up that dream a long time ago. But I will keep trying because I enjoy the process. The possibility that it will get better but if not its fun to try. I guess I'm doomed to this way of learning anything new, a language, how to write etc. I enjoy the doing, the learning, the journey and not necessarily just the END.
Am I gonna die? Sure I am. Hopefully not today but I know someday. Do I think about it? Yea I have thought about it for a long time. Its one of the things that I do. It helps me enjoy what I have ...when I have it because if there is one thing that I do know for sure is that everything changes, time moves on, etc. I'm not obsessed with these thoughts ( ok define obsessed...I have these thoughts occasionally).
I happen to think its healthy, at least for me, to think about the end. It makes the time before the end all the more sweeter. I didn't mean to write today about the end but as the title of the blog says these are my "ramblings" and I do tend to ramble. Ok what was I really gonna talk about today...oh yeah I remember ( I really don't remember I am looking at notes that I wrote down cause I knew I would lose my train of thought). I wanted to mention that I have been trying amongst other things to learn to play an instrument. I stink at it so I'm trying to learn two at once. I know that makes no sense but it is actually starting to work. When I get sick or frustrated with one I turn to the other and since they are both very different it works. I have had both of these instruments for sometime. One , the guitar I have had over 20 years, a present on my 40th birthday. The other a bagpipe chanter was another more recent present.
I have found that learning both doesn't have to mean that I'm good a playing either or that I will ever play any notes that together sound like music. I have given up that dream a long time ago. But I will keep trying because I enjoy the process. The possibility that it will get better but if not its fun to try. I guess I'm doomed to this way of learning anything new, a language, how to write etc. I enjoy the doing, the learning, the journey and not necessarily just the END.